That post you've thought about writing for some time now...

Even though I don't know where to begin, it is better to "just" begin...

It feels like time is flying by and I'm not able to keep up with it! As you all probably know, we are planning to leave for Papua New Guinea THIS January. There are still so many things that need to fall into place before we step foot on that plane, but God continues to utterly amaze me with the generosity of people and churches. I am truly humbled by it all and feel (at times) so "unworthy" of it all (...until I am reminded that it is not about me)!

That being said, we are living life like we are leaving this winter!

Telling Ben's daycare that he would only be there through July was probably one of the hardest things for me to do. Caleb tried to "make me feel better" by saying that the daycare is probably used to this....that moms choose to stay home with their kids all the time. It didn't help. It was SO hard to tell his wonderful teachers this news. Ben is truly going to miss all his "other" mama's. I'm almost on the verge of tears just typing this. Seriously people! His daycare rocks! When he is out, I will shout their name from the rooftops....just not comfortable putting that on my blog yet!

Then, on Friday, I decided to tell my boss that I was quitting. I had this growing anxiety about having to "let work know" and a friend helped me decide that it was better to tell them now then to wait. Caleb and I were fully prepared for them to tell me not to return the next day or to work through my notice. But, they handled it well. Everyone said that they understood...not sure if they meant it. But, it was still nice to not be fired!

So now it is even more official. July 23rd will be my last day of work and Ben's last day of daycare....

The summer is going to FLY by...

This fall, we have also been blessed by our church. They are going to let Ben attend their Parent's Morning Out program even though it will only be for 1/2 the year. Again, utterly blown away by the generosity....

I have to admit that sometimes I have a hard time posting about what's really going on in my life. My hope is that this blog will be honest and authentic, but I can't help but feel guilty that sometimes my "problems" may pale in comparision to what others are facing. But....it is my blog afterall....and as wonderful as being married, having a son and going to the South Pacific may seem at face value, this is still REALLY hard for me. If you know me, you know how ambitious I can be. If you know me, you know that I thrive in the tragic moments of life and doubt in the times of blessings. If you know me, you know how each month between now and January, I will get a little more "weepy" over things like Lucky Charms, So You Think You Can Dance and Target!

If you know me...