Thursday, March 05, 2009

I Promise Not To Get Preachy...

There has been a lot of talk from my church, my spouse, my friends and the blog authors I stalk about "finding your passion". Though I tend to get really fed up with "What is your call?" and "What is your purpose" and "What is God's will" talk (actually, it usually makes me want to vomit), I have been "searching" (so-to-say) for what I really want. Looking back, I see that I am notorious for doing what I think is expected versus what I actually want.

Since High School, I have found the love of my life, created a little baby, started my career, and got the figurative white picket fence....but I can't help but feel like I have "lost" something...or maybe it is just me changing again to meet expectations that I have placed on myself and actually realizing it this time.

It doesn't help that our Pastor just announced that he and his family are not the right fit for our church. This one really threw me this week. Not because I don't want them to go (Ok...selfishly, I don't want them to go). I am in agreement with my husband that this is a great move for them. I am just upset that yet another person I know has "found" it.....or at least voiced that they "found" their passions. Frankly, I'm jealous.

All this silly talk to tell you that I have begun meeting with a mentor/ministering person from my church. She has given me a few verses that I want to share with you. Take it or leave it:

"I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11

This verse made me think of my favorite painting by George Frederick Watts (Ironically, I just realized that it is Obama's favorite painting, too. What can I say, I am for his taste in art and against his taking up of prime time tv airtime. He and American Idol need to keep it short!....hehe).

In case you can't see all the details, the lady is in ruins and rags, blindfolded on top of her world, holding a harp where all the strings are broken except one.....and that one string is making music. The painting is called Hope.

The next verses:

"Cast all your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you." Psalm 55:22

"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." Proverbs 16:3

Made me think of one of my favorite song's lyrics:

Everyone needs compassion

A love that's never failing

Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness

The kindness of a Savior

The hope of nations

So take me as You find me

All my fears & failures

Fill my life again

I give my life to follow

Everything I believe in

Now I surrender the Author of Salvation

1 comment:

Doyle said...

The only thing worse is "finding" what you want to do, but then realizing what you actually have to do in order to do it. Of course, in retrospect, if I had done what I should have while still at CU, it wouldn't be a problem...